Thursday, August 11, 2011


I think I will skip the schooling and the crap that goes with it. I am going to start writing a book, I have the first chapter started now. I just have one problem, I want to publish in another name where NO ONE IN THE WORLD would know that I wrote it. See, my book will be about truth, but with a twist of fake. I know what I want to write will cause more drama, stress and really piss people off. I want to write this FOR ME, not them. I know if I can get "big" and make a lot of money, to where I can move out and live on my own and never have to depend on my "family" again, then I will tell them. I just am afraid of what people will think of my book. I shouldn't care, but I'm scared people will think I'm crazy for the way my imagination runs.

It's not a normal thing, where there is a lover, or a murder or drugs or hell even vampires (well, vampires but not real ones... it's hard to explain.) It's about my real life and what I imagine to escape from it. The characters I have made up in my head feel like they can come to life in my writing. Once it is done, I don't know if I will ever do anything with it. Well, that is if I can even finish it. I still don't know if being a book writer is what I want to do in my life, but if it works out then it will pay the bills you know? I also (saying if I do get published and can make a ton of money) want to donate part of my profits to those in need. I know I will give a part of every book I can publish to animals in need, but right now I really want to help Africa out. They need money and food and medication. They are suffering and kids and babies are dying every second just about. Barely anyone is helping, and those who do get robbed before they items reach where they belong.

Anyway, I need to get back to writing my little book.

Saturday, August 6, 2011


fight ever.

I just had to play "referee" along with my Mom in the worst fight ever. Today was not a good day from the start, but is sure as hell just got worse.

I have NEVER seen my Grandfather, in my 21 years of life, cry because of someone. My Grandmother has just crossed the line of sane to insane. The woman needs to be put in a home for people who have had strokes. She has gone TO FAR!!

After almost seven years (more then that, their entire marriage) of waiting on her hand and foot, my Grandfather forgets one day to empty the potty chair for my Grandmother. (Even though he did, I saw him do it.) She started screaming at him because of it. I stayed out of it until I heard her calling my Mother. She said "GAYLE! GAYLE! I want her in here NOW! She will set your ass straight Roddy!" Even though my Grandmother is the one at fault here.

She then got into his face and scream at him to get out, he is wrong and needs to get out of her house. His name is on the house, his money paid for it. Therefore: his house, not hers. ANYWAY: I called my Mom upstairs when he was starting to shake, turn red and scream in her face. I thought I would be calling 911 to take him to the ER for another heart attack (all of them were brought on by my Grandmother, mind you.)

I really don't know what to do. It really is just a load of bullshit. The more this happens, the worse it gets. My Aunt and Grandmother need to go into a home. Somewhere that is able to take care of them and knows how to deal with them.

I can't anymore. I am 21 years old and should not have to break up a fight between my drunk Grandfather and crazy Grandmother. I should be worrying about college, a job or dating. The normal stuff the average 21 year old has to deal with is nothing I have ever experienced in my life.

Till next time

Friday, August 5, 2011


Someone once said- " There comes a time in your life when you walk away from all the drama and the people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right and pray for the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of life and getting back up is living." ~ Re-post if you agree 100%


Thursday, August 4, 2011


I thought my blog could use a new layout. After 51 posts, I think it is time for a change. Seeing as my real world life is changing, I think my blog should change with it.

Yesterday, 8/3/11, I could not get out of bed and needed help. I spent all day resting. Until my cousin came over. He hasn't been here in over two years. First time for him and Dopey meeting. They got along really well. Joe listened to everything I had to say, so Dopey behaved. Just goes to show I know what I am talking about when it comes to training him. Joe loved him and only after about 5 minutes, Dopey could be unleashed and let go on his own.

Right now he is sleeping on my bed while I sit here with my back against a heating pad. I will have to call my back dr today to see if I can get an appointment. This pain and moving problem is just getting worse. I hope it has nothing to do with my car accident back in November. If it does, I will be really fucked. I REALLY hope it is not my bed. There is nothing I can do about that. I was denied my disability again. Now my lawyer asked for a hearing in front of a judge.

I did not want it to go this far, but I have no choice at this point. I'm broke, my Grandfather is broke and in debt. I just don't know what else to do at this point. HELP?!?

On another note: I wish I had the money for my GED, then I could take it again so then I could take a writing course at CCBC. I think I might pursue my writing dream. I just don't know how long this will last :P

Seeing as I get bored really fast. Like knitting, I am over it and just have all my stuff sitting on a desk collecting dust.

Well, it's almost 4AM now. I think I will go to bed.
Pass my blog along to your friends and family. I want this thing to start rocking. ;-)


Monday, August 1, 2011

I am half way

To 100 posts. This blog, writing it, has helped me get stuff out and be who I need to be. The more I write, the more I am finding who I am. What makes me happy. I guess writing everything down has helped me see what is really going on in my life, day to day.

Today I finished my room. I moved Dopey's cage and dusted everything. I threw a whole trash bag of crap I don't want anymore away.

The worst thing, I have did it today that was on my "to do list." I cleaned out and put Sugar's cage to the recycling. Now Dopey has a bigger area for his bed and a bigger area to lay in when he wants to sleep.

This will be a VERY short blog, because I'm exhausted and would rather have a cup of tea while watching Dopey swim in the pool.

Pass my blog along please. It is slowly growing and reaching more people. It makes me really happy to know that people are really reading this. After all, this is about my REAL, TRUE and everyday life.